I mentioned a few times throughout the past couple of weeks about my journey with breastfeeding twins. Well a journey it has been both for me and the twins! Breastfeeding one baby (though I haven’t done that ) is hard enough I am sure but physically and mentally breastfeeding twins has been one of the most challenging experiences as a mother.
When first born, Micah knew just what to do in terms of nursing. I am not kidding that boy was born to nurse and eat…Jonah on the other hand. Well, Jonah was a bit slow to figure it out but in the hospital was gaining strength and seemed to be figuring the whole nursing thing out a bit more. Let me stop here and say even though we’d been to lactation and nursing classes the babies seriously know more than you in terms of nursing. As the mom, I just felt like I was taking their lead and doing the best I could to help them AKA call the lactation gal or my doula every time we struggled.
The boys were both pretty small when born so weight gain was crucial the first few weeks (still is!). I continued to nurse both but had to supplement Jonah from day one with formula which wasn’t ideal in my mind but I told myself whatever it took to have strong, healthy boys was all that mattered. Now turn the calendar a few weeks to 2 weeks ago, Micah was still nursing champion and Jonah well with the help of a nipple shield he’d get on breast but due to all the ‘work’ nursing takes he wasn’t gaining. AND maybe more importantly I was so frustrated with the entire nursing experience. Many times nursing (the struggle with Jonah) left me in tears and with twins you have NO time for tears or breaks – you have to be ON the whole time.
Now I know MANY women love nursing and find it an emotional bonding time with their babies…not me At first I felt very very guilty but then I snapped out of it. All these babies care is that I love them, that I feed them, and that they grow. So I made the decision to start exclusively pumping for the twins!
In terms of supply – I make enough for a baby and a half but not two so we did supplement for two weeks with two bottles a day of formula and then made the decision to start sharing milk from my sister in law and another amazing woman I met through MOPS. I’m still praying I start making more milk – hello Mother’s Milk tea, brewer’s yeast, steel cut oats, flax seed, almonds – all the lactation friendly foods I devour them
Ok – before I bore you too much I’ll cut this post short for the day (honestly the boys are restless and I need to go feed them ) BUT come back later this week for more on exclusively pumping for twins and milk sharing!