I want to start this post by saying I am beyond blessed that as a family I can stay home to raise our twins. I thank God daily for the blessings and abundance in our life that allows me to do so, but I want to be open and honest with you all today and at the end of this post I want you to come back to the very first line and remember I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THIS OPPORTUNITY!
Ok, after that little disclaimer you are most likely scratching your head thinking, what is going on with Sarah? Well I have a dirty secret that I think many other stay at home moms have too…some days I do NOT want to be a stay at home mom.
Think of it like this you have one of the most stressful jobs around, this job is 24 hours a day and 7 days a week, this job entails bodily fluid clean up, it involves being physically on the move at least 12 hours a day…by now you probably have guessed I’m describing one of the hardest jobs around – being a mom
When I Don’t Want to be a Stay at Home Mom
I don’t know what I imagined my life would be like as a stay at home mom. As a woman leaving the corporate world for the world of babies I’m not sure anything can prepare you for the transition. Do I love it most days? You betcha! I love that I am the #1 person in my childrens’ lives. I love that I get to feed them their first food, hold them while they teethe, I love that I get to watch them sit for the first time.
BUT I think we stay at home moms also need to realize a few things.
There will be days that you absolutely hate your job. There will be days when you cry just as much as they do. You know what I’m talking about Those days when the spit up is endless, those days when you aren’t sure you can even find time to go to the bathroom, those days when the crying won’t end, those days when your husband surprisingly gets stuck in traffic when that was your last thread of hope…one of ‘those’ days.
I was having one of those down right tough days the other day which got me thinking that I bet more moms out there have days like this too but we just don’t talk about it much.
As I lay in bed the night of my ‘bad’ day, I thought through the day. I realized this is just as much a job as any other corporate profession if not MORE demanding. And did I have ‘bad’ days as an accountant – sure! Did I have days where no journal entry I posted was right – sure! Did I have days where I just couldn’t get my debits and credits to balance – sure! Well then duh, if I had bad days as an accountant when I wasn’t ‘ON’ all day then aren’t I going to have bad days as a mom.
Of course!!! Ding, ding, ding – there will be days where I hate being a stay at home mom!
There will be days just like with all jobs where the hours seem long, there will be days where the clients AKA the babies just aren’t happy, there will be days when I make mistakes, there will be ‘those’ days…but you know what?
‘Those’ Days will pass and we will be left with all the other days…we will be left with all the other days full of smiles, full of first milestones, full of baby giggles, full of hugs…and that makes it worth it.
Moms – I’m here to tell ya, you will hate your job some days and that’s ok…cut yourself a break, pray for strength, and remind yourself that all the other days are some of the most miraculous, amazingly blessed days!